Friday, December 28, 2012

So, the new year is upon us.  2012, what a whirlwind.  I know a lot of people like to recap their year and set sights on what will make the following year better.  And really, I am no different.  2011 was very tough on me, and 2012 was the best redemption I could have had.  It was one of my favorite years.  It even started off wonderful.  I had little to no expectation for New Year's Eve celebrations and it turned out to be one of my favorites, sipping drinks all night with some of my closest friends.  I was on an up and down for what seemed like all year as to whether I should move to NY or not, but after meeting a boy who I am now madly, deeply in love with I felt it a sign to stay put and explore Los Angeles just a bit longer!

And falling in love had to have been the best part of the year.  I had it as a resolution to let love into my heart again, whether it be in the form of friendship or kinship but it came in the best form possible.  I really couldn't be happier, and I am very excited to see what the future holds for us in the next year.  Hopefully more travels, laughs and plenty of kisses. 
One thing I learned this year is to enjoy life more and do my very best to subside stress.  When I was in Paris, I was in awe and marvel as to how at ease most people seemed.  Work was what everyone was doing in between living, not the other way around (the way I think Americans are).  Pleasure, life and enjoyment was a priority and I really want to make it a goal to incorporate that into my lifestyle.  Do more of what will make me happy and explore with enjoyment.  Yes, I will always be a responsible girl who analyzes things from every angle.  But one more cup of coffee, one more drink, one more pair of shoes and a spontaneous trip can do me good.  
My two resolutions for 2013 will be to move to a lovely apartment (something I think will happen in the first few months) and start taking French courses again.  And of course, work on being a better friend, girlfriend, daughter, sister and person.  My impatience can get the better of me in all of those very important roles I inhabit!
Well wishes to all resolutions! xo

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

instagram life, lately

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obligatory "i voted"; frankie, decked out for a cold night walk 
new winter hat; missing the streets of Paris
looking cool, i guess; frankie, looking mighty suspicious
nights out; pre thanksigiving glow
thanksgiving beauty; my brunch, post thanksgiving
animals indoors; los angeles christmas beauty
brought back bangs; christmas losers
birthday baby; kubrick exhibit 
queen of sparkle collars; gold everything
christmas eve fire feet; our christmas card, sorta

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

recent realizations

1.  fresh juice can take me from lethargic to instant happiness.  but none of that fruit juice.  i like the green stuff everyone sticks their tongue out at. 
2.  this is going to sound mega lame or just super cheesy, but walking around DTLA with pizza in hand with the person you love past people waiting in line to get into a club/bar is so much better than being in said club/bar.  i realize this only adds to my grandma nature but i don't care.
3.  who the hell cares about twinkies anyway?
4.  just stay home on black friday.  you don't need any of that crap and you might get trampled to death!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

it happened, deal with it


It's been a week since the election came to a close and I can honestly say I am ready for everyone to shut up.  I don't care who you voted for because, as bratty and rude as it sounds, my guy won and I jumped up with happiness when  I found out that as a woman and poor twenty something-year-old will still have someone in the White House who cares about my well being/future.  I'm ready for my co-workers to stop arguing about his reelection, and definitely ready for the person who sits within ear shot of me to me to stop saying "ah it's happening already!!" every time something bad happens (attributing it to President Obama's reelection).  Seriously, shut up and do some research outside of FoxNews before you start looking up to the heavens for signs that the end of the universe is coming.  Please and thank you, that's all I have to say. 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

instagram life, lately

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necessary haircut, post vacation; ciclavia
beautiful sunsets; pretty shoes brought back from Paris
baby takin us for a ride; Halloween preppin
Lakers game happiness; look up sometimes!
Halloween insanity; my second carved pump ever
beautiful DTLA, I'll be seeing more of you; the last chance to dress up

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

recent realizations

1.  Not so much a realization, but a wish that my best friend didn't live in across the country.  It's times like these where I'm looking for a place and she needs another roommate in her apartment that make me wish we weren't living happily so far away!
2.  Los Angeles is an idiot that cannot decide whether it wants to be cold or hot this Fall.
3.  The election has been the best way of determining who actually totally sucks on my Facebook feed.  Really guys, keep that opinionated nonsense to a minimum.
4.  I hate waiting.  Hate, hate, hate.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Monday, October 8, 2012

so, things will never be just so

I think I've written about this before, but often times I feel in such a hurry to accomplish a lot.  I tend to feel like time is running out even though I'm only in my early twenties.  I am a very anxious person in this way.  But I'm really making a conscious effort to be better at going with the flow of things.  The flow of life.  That's not to say that I don't want to put effort or even throw myself into making positive changes (like a new job, apartment, etc.) but I guess to not let the fact that all those things aren't happening at once stress me out so much.  I get very stressed out.  When something wonderful is happening in my life I tend to not allow myself to fully enjoy it, but rather wonder why something that isn't going so well is not going as well as the thing that is.  Wow, that probably doesn't read right.  
For example, my relationship right now is the most wonderful, lovely, butterflies in my stomach fantastic thing right now.  But rather than doing backflips all the time and counting myself lucky for finding someone so wonderful me, I am racing in my mind wandering and thinking things like "Oh, but life would be so perfect if I also loved my job."  This is such a bad habit on my part.  Because really in life things will never be perfect.  One day, I will get a lovely job and then I'll be unsatisfied with the commute, or with my place of living, or something.  The point is, for an anxious person like me there is always something on the checklist.  The list of things that can be improved.  And that is both annoying for people around me and...for me!  It's not easy being anxious.  I know that's silly to say, but really.  This feeling of running out of time or not doing enough and just being all around inpatient with myself and my accomplishments is tough.  And when people tell you to "relax" or "take it easy, you're so young!" it doesn't help. Because learning to be relaxed is something I really can't add to this checklist.  But accepting that this is how I am and might always be and making a conscious effort to take breaks between the madness and just enjoy is something I can add.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

instagram life, abroad

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the most magical city ever;oh so much love in Paris
Versailles beautiful;my neighborhood looked spooky one night
double espressos every morning;Sacre Coeur
my "I'm in Paris!!" face;that girl is overrated
Jim Morrison;Laduree to say goodbye to Paris
Beethoven's home in Bonn, Germany;treats everywhere i turn
i visited many castles while in Germany;Rhine river
my neighborhood in Berlin;the Berlin Wall
Berlin Wall, again;sleepy train rides
ate entirely too many pretzels