Monday, July 23, 2012

instagram life, lately

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a shirt that bums my mom out every time i wear it; overgrown bangs
fourth baby; Persian ice cream that makes 100 degree days better
pretty new sparkle; summer concerts at the pier
blue light fun at Bloomfest; melting candles at a party

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

recent realizations

1.  When you like someone a whole lot, you will miss them a whole lot.  Even if you are separated for a little bit of time.  Isn't that somethin?
2.  The word "gaping" disgusts me in any context, any time, spoken by any person.  We need to stop using this word as a species.
3.  It is a fact that if you notice a girls haircut or that she got her nails done she will have an instant crush on you.  This even applies when a four year old boy tells you your sparkly nails are pretty.  Some boys are just heart breakers from the start.
4.  It is really important to listen to what someone has to say when you call them.  I know this is simply a pet peeve of mine because I answer phones as a secretary, but when I tell you where you are calling don't return with the question "oh is this the office of....?"  I just told you what it is the office of, wake up!  Okay, that is all.

Monday, July 9, 2012

I'll never...

I simply loved this post by the wonderful Garance DorĂ©.  I think when I read blogs about fabulous people and their fabulous lives & travels I just assume they are effortlessly perfect.  But oh, it is a good reminder that everyone has traits that they will never possess or characteristics they admire in others that are not part of them.  So, inspired by Garance, here are a few things I'll never:

I'll never be good at expressing my emotions.

Oh, this is something I feel like I am always apologizing for. Although I am a writer, I find it really hard to properly verbalize how I feel about someone or something.  It is something I am constantly working at, especially because I really want those that I love and adore to know how much I love and adore them.  But it is something I always have trouble with.  I never have trouble knowing how I feel, but it's the verbalizing part that is tough.  It almost feels as though I feel such intensity in my gut and heart that words cannot form to recreate the wonder I feel.  Does that make sense?  Oh goodness!

I'll never be without bangs.

Never again, never again shall I go without bangs.  I have had bangs since I was a child.  My mother just loved the look of them.  And then, growing up that made me very self conscious about my forehead.  Even though I have a perfectly fine forehead that isn't very large or very small.  But I do have a widows peak (of course I do, I'm Middle Eastern!).  I tried not having bangs for the first time in my life last year and it was so difficult.  I kept waiting for the point where I would love it, but alas I never did so I went back to being a girl with a face framed by hair.  But hey, that's not so bad.

I'll never be a girl who can turn down dessert.

Nope, it's never gonna happen.  And honestly, I don't want to be.

I'll never stop feeling like I'm not doing enough.

Whether it be taking on more hobbies, looking to further my career, spending more time with friends & family, or working at making my boy happy I always feel like there is more I can do.  I don't know if this is such a bad thing, but I have been told that I am too hard on myself for this reason.  I am only 23, but I am always afraid that I am not doing enough or contributing enough to make life better.  I think I'm just afraid of missing out.